Wow! That is all I can manage to say when I think that seven weeks have already passed me by and I feel like I still don't have it quite all together since having Luke. Next week he will be two months old and next week I will be back to work. Ugh! Which leads me to my next thought...how in the world do new mommies work WHEN THEIR BABIES DO NOT SLEEP!? Okay, so he sleeps some but it takes an entire night-time regiment to get this baby to bed at night. Some may argue that this is what life is truly like with a newborn but this was NOT what we were used to three years ago when we had Madelyn. I always heard from so many how lucky we were with her sleeping habits, but I didn't understand those comments fully until now.Upon bringing Luke home from the hospital he slept like a champ which now I realize was due to his jaundice. When family and friends would call those first few days to see how our new little guy was doing, Jeremy and I were so proud to say "he slept well last night." So, in our minds we weren't thinking that we just got "lucky" with Madelyn since our second child was following in her foot steps--we just managed to genetically create sleeping babies, that's all. HAHAHAHAHAHA--The joke was on us! Now if you are trying to have a baby soon or have one on the way, I'm warning you to STOP READING NOW. You may end up leaving your baby in your belly for another 9 months! What I'm about to tell you isn't pretty nor sugar-coated but the honest to goodness truth. The good, the bad, the ugly...
Slowly but surely Luke's jaundice started getting better day by day and his sleeping was getting less and less. Did you know that newborn babies don't really sleep through the night at first?! Yep! That's what I'm telling you and I didn't even believe it myself until I started living it. Alright, so I'm being a little facetious but truly I had no idea that Luke would be such a difficult little guy. And maybe he wasn't/isn't so bad but his sister had set such a standard that we just expected life to continue as normal-just this time with two kids. My maternity leave was not spent on daily Christmas shopping trips and glorious lunch dates with girlfriends while showing off my handsome little newborn. Instead, most of my time was spent in pajamas while trying to get a nap at any point throughout the day and desperately hoping to get a daily shower and brush my teeth before 8pm. Let me tell you, I was such a sight for the first 4 weeks! How Jeremy was able to look past all of that and still see a glimpse of me underneath the tired hormonal lady that was now his w
ife is beyond me.Seven weeks later, here we are and I truly can see the light-a candle light no less, but I see a flicker of hope. The sleeping is getting better-last night our little guy slept from midnight until 7a, after I let him "cry it out" for about 45min but that's a whole other post-and I feel like I'm finally starting to manage two kids somewhat okay.
I still have a lot to learn and we still have a long road ahead until Luke finally gets into a good solid routine and although I may sound naive, I really think he will get there. And at the end of the day, please know that through all of this sarcasm and complaint I would not ever change one thing because even during those late night feedings when I'm battling my eyelids from shutting, Luke looks up at me with the most beautiful grin, and my heart melts and I am once again reminded how wonderfully blessed we are.
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Oh Stephanie you are preaching to the choir - I know exactly how you feel - Bradley, like Madelyn was a perfect baby - did not cry, slept well, the only issue I had with him was he wanted to eat every hour, but was sleeping through the night (like 8 - 10 hours) at like 3 months - NOT this time around. Wesley has gotten a lot better but we still have those nights we are up at 2 am. He is never content, nothing makes him happy except your undivided attention - which as you have learned is hard to do with a 3 year old who demands just as much attention. McDonalds, Wendy's and Taco Bell have become our staples for dinner because I have no time to cook. Which as you can guess is not keeping me looking my best weight wise.:-) As always my New Year's resolution revolves around weight and getting in better shape. It does get better I will say - however, going back to work brings on a new challenge. Good Luck and know you are not alone. Call me if you need to vent! :-)
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