As I sit here with a million things running through my head and so many thoughts to jot down, I am interrupted by my crying 3 month old. I truly don't think he is EVER going to sleep-not even a couple of minutes for a nap! As soon as I hear that first little whimper through the monitor I instantly get a little sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. Does that sound horrible? I have come to the realization that this blog is actually my therapy. It's my very own journal. It's my "tell it like it is" declaration of life and when I finally get a few minutes to myself its such a good feeling-Until it is soon cut short by whimpers and screams or "Mommy can I....or Mommy I need...or Mommy I want..."Now please understand that there's no better job in the world than being a mom, but just like with every job, breaks are needed. Because of last week and everything that we went through I am physically, mentally, and emotionally spent.
After being pretty sick myself for about a week it was no surprise when Madelyn and Luke ended up with the sniffles and a cough soon after. However, never in a million years had I expected our doctor to give me the news that Luke would have to be admitted into the hospital with what he suspected to be RSV. Okay, for those of you out there unfamiliar with Respiratory Syncytial Virus (a.k.a. RSV), it is just another word for influenza and/or cold in babies. Its common, its contagious, and its absolutely unfortunate. My poor Luke had to endure so much in the hospital between blood work, nasal swabs, x-ray scans, and breathing treatments. It was very hard to watch and after three very long days of it we were finally discharged. His cough is still not completely gone and he is now on some meds to help clear his lungs but luckily we are able to treat at home. In addition to all of this we got hit with a double whammy because great news everyone, MADELYN GOT IT TOO! No kidding. Jeremy took her in before the weekend to get her checked out as well and wouldn't you know it that she had it too. So now, she is also on meds for her lungs in addition to some antibio
tics for an ear infection that we had no clue about. Talk about exhausted! I feel like we are on house arrest with no one in and no one out.
I will say that my poor little guy has really been through so much in his short time between the jaundice, latch problems, reflux, and now this. I just pray for better days ahead and for him to get a little older. The lack of sleep, although dreadful at times, is way easier to cope with rather than a sick baby-actually make that TWO sick children.
tics for an ear infection that we had no clue about. Talk about exhausted! I feel like we are on house arrest with no one in and no one out.I will say that my poor little guy has really been through so much in his short time between the jaundice, latch problems, reflux, and now this. I just pray for better days ahead and for him to get a little older. The lack of sleep, although dreadful at times, is way easier to cope with rather than a sick baby-actually make that TWO sick children.
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Oh Stephanie - I feel for you - I had no idea he was in the hospital but I know how that trip to Dr. Childers goes. I took Bradley when he was, oh about a year and a half, I took him by myself and I was SHOCKED when he said I am not going to admit him to the hospital because we caught it pretty early but... I remember my heart hitting my throat. I can only imagine what the feeling would be if he had actually said I am admitting him to the hospital. I can only offer my support, and know that eventually he will get better. I know that is hard to believe right now and I know it is hard to function on sleep deprevation but step back and take a deep breathe and hopefully one of these days he will come into his own. I talked to several people this weekend at a Birthday Party who's children had had tubes and they described thier boys as I would describe Wesley right now and they said it was like night and day once they had tubes - SO I am keeping my fingers crossed that, that is the case with us too. I can tell you once the sleep thing works itself out it will get better. Good Luck Girl and I promise it will get better!!!
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